Contrary to the belief of many well meaning friends, I wasn’t taken away by an UFO / taken sick / stopped blogging etcetera all… The vanishing act was not intentional – just happened. Well, I have promised myself at least one post a week so that I don’t go missing again.
I will sum up the last couple of months in as little words as possible: Honestly speaking, Kollam isn’t the best of places in the world!! The climate is toooo humid and sticky and the environment too gossipy. Anyway, Once the troops [Law, my dad and my in laws] were there, it was funnnnn….I was glad to have all the people who are close to me around when I really needed them.
My due date happened to be the 6th of august. The baby was still showing no signs of coming out – guess he felt comfortable and cozy in his mommy’s tummy. My gynecologist RS was of the opinion that since the placenta had attained grade 3 calcification [meaning it was mature] waiting further wasn’t really sensible. However, as a final try, she did try to induce the pain – but no luck! I was taken in for a c-section on the 7th at about 13.15 hrs. It is so difficult to put in words the emotions that I went through. First of all, since we were expecting [and wanted] a normal delivery it became a little difficult to accept a c-sec. Secondly, The doc had agreed that Law could be by my side during the delivery but with it being a c-sec Law wasn’t allowed to. [Also, personally I feel that Law had developed cold feet to actually see all the blood and the injections...Let me be the first one to shout it out: Law is really frightened of everything that goes on in the hospitals]. And more than anything I started missing my mom like crazy – this feeling always washes over me on all the important occasions in my life. The mid-wife who was helping me in getting ready was trying to make small talk and was able to gauge the kind of mood I was in. She called Law to where I was putting on the gown and he came in to say that everything is gonna be alright…and there it went!! The emotions bottled up in me [which the meantime had got converted to buckets of tears started rolling down me]. Now the one thing that I really hate is crying in front of others and the worst part of it was that on being questioned I wasn’t really sure as to what the reasons were.
Once the anesthesia was given, I was lost to the world.
I don’t know when I came to, but I was still in the operation theatre being observed. I was feeling groggy when a nurse bought in the baby near me. I wanted to capture my first view of him and keep it frozen in my mind forever…but my still-under-anesthesia-mind allows me to remember only his tremendous mane of hair and his puffy eyes -He looked very Caucasian to me. I remember whispering his name and kissing him lightly on his temple. He was again whisked away from me. I don’t remember much of anything else that day.
Master Ryan Lawrence was born on the 7th of august at 15.28 hrs and weighed a healthy 3.25 Kgs at birth.
So far, He has been a pretty hassle free kid – sleeps at night, enjoys being talked to and totally hates his massage lady!! Oh! How he cringes at the sight of her!!
The entire experience of pregnancy of bringing a child into this world – it completely humbles me. I recommend it for every woman to experience it at least once in their lifetime. The words of Elizabeth Stone ring so clear and true “making the decision to have a child- it’s momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body”. Though my heart hasn’t really started walking outside, I do see it flapping his hands and legs, gurgling when spoken to, smiling as if to assure me that everything is all right and crying if in want of something… tell you what – It’s an amazing feeling and overpowers million times the stench of potty and pee.
